anxious

toss on the bed
convincing myself that it's alright
unconvincingly

look at the clock
time is elapsing
unused time
not sleeping not working
waste with no option to recycle

awake
but not enough to be useful
fluctuations between feeling on top
and feeling squashed

asleep
but not quite
so close to worry that
closed eyes keep me lingering

toss on the bed
daylight has come slowly

listen

it is a scary thought to think that i need to be entertained in order to hear... what are the most entertaining things saying to me?