being ok alone

So I'm not sure about this one at all, and I think that by me writing this post, I will ultimately contradict myself, but I'm going to blog what's on my mind anyhow...

I'm at the Mugg and Bean in Greenstone. I was going to meet a friend here but then he couldn't so i took my mac out and bought some wi-fi megabytes on my kulula card, to pass time. After checking facebook and the twofold page to see if anyone has said anything I looked up the super 14 fixtures to see how many games i would be able to fit in this weekend. and then I ran out of things to do. It seems that the to-do list shrinks considerably during the holidays!

at about this time- after finishing my first cup of coffee i started to become slightly smug at the fact that i was sitting all on my own and was ok with it-- you see, i have always subscribed to the fact that everyone needs to be okay with spending time on their own. ie. they have to be comfortable with their own company. In my mind, i take it as far as if people can't be alone for very long then they got issues.

so i was getting smug... very proud at how well i was being alone. until i realised just how many distractions are around me... let me list them:
- the TV showing me live rugby (waratahs v cheetahs)
- the coffee in front of me
- the table's conversation next to me that is abundantly interesting
- facebook (which is like being surrounded by 20 people anyway)
- my moblie (from which i have sent 2 text messages already)
- my waitress (her name is Janet and everytime she comes over i keep her chatting for as long as possible)

hm. this alone time is actually just one big distraction that i love. it's the joy of company without the effort of communicating. whoa.

which brings me to an interesting conclusion. my only REAL alone time is with Jesus. when i'm putting my mind on His things. when i'm creating space for him rather than filling up space for me.